Shit Week

Yup, as the title suggests, it has been a horrible week.
This week was really horrible and im extremely glad that it's coming to an end.
Firstly, while doing one of my assignments, i attempt to save my work as always.
But then it couldnt seem to successfully save anything.
It kept prompting me to format my thumbdrive.....
That was when i knew i was screwed...
My entire thumdrive has been corrupted....
The assignment which i have been working on has been corrupted.
Which means it can no longer be opened or saved or anything.
It just became trash.
I was so upset and moodless when i knew i had to redo.
And even better? The submission deadline was the next day which is today.
Means i had less than 24 hours to redo every single shit.
Which includes a report, a document from photoshop and my sketches.
Had to start from scratch.....

Then, on the same day itself, after feeling like shit, i tot going for a run would help a little.
I was suppose to have training on that day, but it was replaced by some H-Two-O competition.
Yeah, a running competition.
So, i tot it would make my day a lil better.....
or so i tot...
I had shin splints.....
It was extremely painful and i had to stop running.
My friend who is a more professional athlete helped torture me.
He knuckled and elbowed and press and pushed the splint.
All the way from the area near my ankles, up to where my calve is.
Idk how....but he managed to move my splints.
Which was pretty amazing yet scary.
So now, it's pretty swelled up and painful.
And by right, im suppose to have my NAPHA test today.
But look at my leg, how am i suppose to do my best?
So i didnt take my napha and had to postpone it.

Shit week indeed.
So thankful it's finally the end of Thursday.
As mentioned in my previous post, i dont have school on Fridays.
So yeah....my weekends starts on Thursday night actually.
Managed to redo everything regarding that assignment and submitted it today just before the lesson ends. Felt really great.
Leg's still feeling a little swollen and painful, but definitely much better than yesterday.
Well, i shall enjoy my weekends.
No wait, i MUST enjoy my weekends.
My weekdays were too shitty.
hehe, till next time.

The weekends are finally here

Yes, for me, Thursday is the last weekday of the week.
Cause i dont have school on Fridays.
So glad it's finally thursday.
That nice feeling of going to sleep a lil later than usual but not feeling worried cause you know it's friday tmr and you can wake up any time you want.
It's a nice feeling.
Anyway i have some "bonding" games day for my course tmr....
I strongly doubt im going. I see no point really.
Here's the logic behind tomorrow's bonding day :
Course lecturer feels that we should bond with the juniors (year 1s)
Therefore plan a bonding day for us...

Isn't it a bit too late?
If you wanted to bond, shouldnt you have planned and done so much earlier?
For us, we have about 6-8 more months of school before graduation.
What is there to bond? I dont see the need to bond with anyone else cause we would all be gone in a matter of months.
Besides, i really dislike this kind of bonding day thingy.
Not that i dont like to socialize. But i really see no point to socialize now.
And the lecturers actually know many of us are reluctant to come and thus they "threaten" us by saying attendance will be taken and it is compulsory. -.-
So...what if i dont come? Do i get banned from taking exams?
I dont get it. Lol.

Anyways, how time flies.
It's already coming to the end of July.
Before we know it, it's already 2016. 
Drinking some sparkling ribena drink now.
That's all for tonight~

Shag

Yes, shag I is.
Been felling realy tired. Dk why.
Must be because of training last night.
I think i wore myself out too much.
After our grueling run, we did core training on our own.
This includes crunches, leg raises etc.
My core was so painful, it felt like my innards were being twisted around.
Feels better now of course, now it feels tired. Lol
My thigh and butt feels a lil aching too.

After i came home from school today, i took a nap.
And it is rare for me to do that, which shows how tired i am.
Well, its Wednesday tomorrow.
Which means.......training again T.T
Seems like a lot of training huh? Nope.
Our trainings are only on Monday and Wednesday.
2 days per week seems little. But if done properly and seriously, it's more than enough to wear us out for the rest of the week.
I think i'll sleep early tonight.
Cant always be late for school.
Not that i love school but yeah...responsibility x.x

On a side note, i need new novels to read man....
I'm done reading all of mine. Even read some again twice.
Decided to lend some of my books to a friend too. Who enjoys reading the same genre of novels.
But...getting new ones are so painful to my wallet.
Why are books so expensive..lol.
I still remember back in secondary school, i used to buy someone his/her favourite storybooks.
Yup, the whole collection. Not sure if that person still remembers. but, yeah. haha.

Hmmm, feel like taking a crap now.
Release chocolate hostages. lol.
It's nice when they cooperate.
Rather than having to force them out. haha.

And i just realized that everyone's blogs nowadays are like on tumblr.
And here i am still using blogger. Lol.
But hey! Old is gold yknow.
I HAD a tumblr account. But....i didnt know how to use it.
Fiddled with it for a few days and gave up.
It's probably frozen and archived now. haha.
Someone once said to help me create a tumblr account and teach me how to use it as well as help me update it once in awhile.
But it never happened. hehe.
Okay, thats it for today.
I shall go see if the chocolate hostages want to be released now. :)

A mind without purpose will wander in dark places

Yup, got my header from the game i played.
"A mind without purpose will wander in dark places"
Makes a lot of sense. Food for thought.
If you dont have a goal or purpose in life, be it short term or long term, you will start to wander off.
To where? To dark places where we're not suppose to go.
That's where we start doing bad things or learning bad habits.
Thought for the day.

Anyways it's saturday today.
Woke up damn late today. haha!
After waking up, ate some food and started playing game.
As usual my phone was quiet as shit....
Nothing much going on.
It's about 145am now.
Should probably go to sleep alrd. But decided to blog first before i off ma lappy.

Tmr is sunday already. How fast....
The weekends always seem to speed up faster than any other days of the week.
While weekdays feel like months...zzzzz
My grandpa should be coming over to ma place tmr. Just for some visiting.
Mum's gonna cook his fav food.
Tmr is chill day. Or rest day. Cat day. Sloth day. Whatever you wanna name it.
 Starting to feel really lonely these few days.
Mainly cause im not really close with anyone from my class....and i dont want to get too close either.
And other than that, i dont seem to have anyone else....
Everyone else is just my friend.
Well, thats it for today. 

TGIF

Yeap, it's Friday.
Or whats left of it. Today is also the first day of Hari Raya~
Scrolled through Instagram and seeing so many good looking people!
And here i am looking like a potato.

Didn't do much today.
Went to Somerset with aunt and mum today.
Went to watch Ant-Man. Was pretty good. Like any typical Marvel movie.
After which we went to eat. Shopped at Muji then came back home.
Bought some snacks from Muji.
Cheese popcorn, some bread crackers with sugar and chocolate marshmallow.
Eating the marshmallow now as we speak.
Also bought myself a really cute and cool mini fan.
It's USB cable powered. Meaning it's meant for when you're using your com or lappy and you need a lil extra wind.
It's pretty neat. Small, compact, kinda powerful and handy.
But comes with a price.... $39 for that damn thing haha.
Oh well, been awhile since i bought something nice for myself.

My phone has been especially quiet today.
Literally. From morning till night. The entire day, just silence.
The only notifications i got were from my game. That's about it.
I can understand why. Everyone is busy enjoying themselves on the first day or Raya.
haha! and plus, most of my friends are malay.
Oh well.
That's it for tonight! 

Eid Mubarak

Yup, today is the last day of the ramadhan month.
Which also means it is the start of Hari Raya, tmr is the first day.
Happy for my Muslim friends. They all seem so excited and have such happening plans.
And as for me? I'm just gonna spend my weekends in solitary confinement.
Haha jk, but yeah, close to that. I've got nth much to do now that school has started.

Currently blogging via my phone.
Was gaming earlier on and forgot to blog before I shut it down. Haha
It's so difficult to tweet from your phone. Damn
On ma bed now. Just had my supper. It's 1am now.
Was feeling hungry and wanted to cook maggi but luckily parents were still out and were nice enough to get me some mee goreng~
Wasn't much, but it was good enough for me.

Napha is in exactly 2 weeks time. I'm more nervous about that than I am about assignments.
Lol.
Reason is simple. I have to get either GOLD or SILVER to be considered as a pass.
BRONZE or below would be a fail.
Which means I have to go in tekong for my BMT a few weeks earlier than stated.
Who wants that?
If stuff like this can be avoided. Ill definitely try hard.
Who wants to go in to tekong 1-2 months after graduating??? Haha!
Which is why I am aiming for a silver and above.
Have been doing push ups and sit ups everyday when I get home from school.
I can't do much of those, therefore I have to really work on my 2.4km.
That's where majority of my points will come from. -end-

Have been thinking about myself lately.
Reflecting and reevaluating the way I see things and people.
I ask myself so many questions. But can't find any answer to them.
Why am I so sensitive?
Why do I overthink so much??
Am I really that lousy in people's eyes?
Why do people think of me in such a way? (Not that I care)
Why am I so easily affected by things?
Why am I so negative?
And the list goes on....
I don't like the fact that im all of the above mentioned.
I tend to disappoint people. Especially that one person. And I don't like it.
Which is why I have to reflect and reevaluate how I perceive things and people now.
I can say I'm slowly improving....but definitely not good enough.
I will try to be better.

Well, that's all for the night. My fingers are starting to cramp up from typing all these on my phone.
Till next time.

Day 2

Day 2 of this renewed blog. Still going good and strong.

School today was a total waste of time....
zzzz dont wanna talk about it. haha
Anyways today had dinner at Arnold's with my ex secondary school mates.
Definitely a good catch up time with them.
Lots of laughter, jokes and.....chicken.

Arnold's was good i must say.
It's pretty pricey but hey, if you're looking for good quality fast-food, you've just found it.
I had a WHOLE spring chicken to myself.
Managed to devour only 2/3 of it. Then was gonna explode.
Cause we had fries, mash and soup too. Gosh...
It was good. But extremely oily and bad for health.
But who cares when it comes to food!

Had a good catch up with my ex sec school mates.
Been quite a while since i actually had such a good time with my guy friends.
My class is 90% girls.....i cannot take it.
It's dreadful.
Therefore, whenever i have the chance to spend time with my guy friends, i treasure those moments :') haha for now at least.
Laughed till i felt like sleeping.

Tmr is Thursday already.
There goes another week....thats fast.
WHICH IS GOOD!
I pray that time flies faster this year. It's getting boring....
Had a pretty hard time trying to get ma body clock back to sequence again.
Well, thats all for tonight i guess.
Will share more again tmr.

First.

Firstly, dont ask why i created a new blog and dont ask about my URL.
I was having a hard time deciding my URL so i just used smth familiar to me.
It was just taken from the game i play and book i read, from Orks.

This is the first post of my new blog. and i plan to keep it going for as long as i can.
I know i have created several others before this, but they've all passed away.
Just feel it would be nice to have a virtual dairy where i can share my thoughts and views.
Even though no one reads them. hehe

Life has pretty much been on the down side lately.
Not much ups. Caused by several issues that i choose not to affect myself with it.

As for school, well, im finally in my second year which is my final year.
Will be graduating in 10 months or so. Next April.
I. Cant. Wait.
Kinda sick of school. Trying my best not to hate school so much.
Trying to find the smallest things to keep me going.
Just to clarify, its not SCHOOL that i dislike.
It's the PEOPLE in my class and the COURSE i am in.
Which is why i am ever so eager and keen to graduation day.
After which i will serve my NS. lol.
We'll leave that for another day.

It's ma first post and dont wanna make it too wordy.
On a side note, i'm so tired of people now.
At first they look like they care about you and are always concerned about you etc.
But then, they actually dont give a damn.
They dont care about how u feel. They only ACT like they do.
But unfortunately....they dont. the sad truth. lol
Makes you think actually......makes you think about all the conversations u ever had with that person and everything you did tgt with that person. all those memories, wasted.
Be it a friend, stranger, classmate, colleague etc.
Like all the memories u had with that person was just.....fake.
Because he/she never actually cared about your feelings or how you felt.

That's all for tonight.